❤JESUS REIGNS❤

My heart is no longer mine.... I haf no idea how to take care of it..... Owaes break and break and break... Dunno how many countless times le.. Plasters oso can't repair it lah. Neither medicine. Neither heartache-professionists. Only God... Can heal it..... Can haf the ability to treat it....... Cure it.......... I want my brokeness to stop asap........ :( *cough*

Oh wells. It's pretty late now... But just can't sleep, even though quiet time is over for me. Keep on thinking about so many things... Uncle oso wanna say i stress for nothing. LOL. Yeeah, indeed. I stress for NOTHING. =.= Win lur. I just reached home not long ago after finishing my dinner at the kopitiam near my house after the cell-grp meeting. Haix. My cell-group is still very cold for me lei... When i left, i think barely a few cg member notice... ? That tym got once even zai. I went to cg meeting dunno got anyone notice i'm there anot. HAIXhaix. *cough* Nevermind lah. Mayb now i too stress cant socialise very well... :o At least i wann to seek God still... Dun wan to lose out to Satan... Now even if i am alone, at least i still haf God by my side... With me to go through this tough time in life with me...

Hiyahs. Vivian and me. Our friendship dunno wad happen liao... She got Chen Yi is more than enuff for her... ? Den i just dont want to be someone extra. *cough* Dun mind being good or bff with Adeline. Just dont like to be used by Vvian. LOLol. Su shan oso another one. Wa lao ehs. Life is like this for me now... Wad i can look forward to... ? God lor. Even my own cg is like tat. Wad can i do manns... Perhaps another test from God to me... ? :) Haha won't fail it de. God is really strict huh. So many tough tests for me... Very very tired le... I am... But the Holy Spirit is there with me... :) PTL. Although God leave me alone, He still loves me. Holy Spirit is with me... ^^

Wa kao. My prelim result. D; Can take the prelim result paper go wash the toilet bowl arh. =_=''' F9. E8. Cs. Majority % of my result. Wah. Holy crap result. Actually i'm really upset for it... :( But nobody will really think that i am. Why: coz many of my frenz are selfish, or like vvian, oso dun wan to study one. So when can pass they're like so happy. No motivation for me at all. Class position of 6. Oh manns. Wad to do? Only can blame my ownself for being so distracted during that period lor... Everything slack slack. Haix. Crazy JeNN. Insane. LOLOL! =.= I'm saying smth -ve abt my ownself... ? O.o Jia lard lah i no hope liao. Really need God.....

Thirsting and hungry after God... Alone... No one else... No more Bs and Ks liao. LOL. BK. Stupid lahhs. Distractions only. And they are distractions i made for myself. :D Crazy means crazy. Well, guess it's natural, si xin is si xin liao. No more is no more. :) I ONLY IS DESPERATE FOR GOD.......

Anyway today cg meeting worship song was the one that i loved. The God i know. :) <33

"The God i know, righteous and Holy... The God i know, faithful and true... The God i know, the
light of the city... The God i know, strengthens the weak... "... "Let Christ reveal... "

The one that i'm able to connect to God so strongly that time. Cry so much that time. All wasted... Nvm. Still i put my trust. In God. I will seek after God's heart. Not my will, but His be done. His desire is mine. :) "Your heart beats within me... "

This is my cry, my one desire... More of you... More of you... This is my cry... My one desire.... More....... More... This is my cry.. My ONE desire......... MORe of you...... MORE of you.......... (Chachinos)....... Righteous and holy...... Hearts are healed..... Christ revealed....... Strong and mighty....... ` <33