❤JESUS REIGNS❤

1:09 AM 23 AUG 2009
(mid-night thundering makes me unable to sleep T____T )

Haix... It's raining cats and dogs now... The rain is the sign of sorrow in my heart... When everything seems to goes wrong, there is always a light, a right track, to follow... And one of the best way to escape is actually to flee, avoiding temptations that will eventually cling on to your mind if it is not attended to immediately... To see friends getting involved in several activities is really not the right mindset that i should have... They should be invisible to me... Afterall loads of words had not been spoken, by the look of those faces tells a billion tons of "craps"... Well, i guess by the smoke that i always hate tells that the barrier built between us is sooOOOOoo thick that we can merely see each other... Probably no more view... Probably no more hope...

Lols. So emo.. =_______='''

Nahs, new topic. :D Wah, yesterday, which is like several hours ago, Vvian and me quarrelled worh. O.o Stupid sia. Afterall is not my fault. I've no idea how long this will last... Nvm lor. I'll concentrate on studies more... Although it's hard still, coz of Kings. =.= I really look forward to 11 nov, the last day of my O level paper, however, he'll be back by then... T>T Wa lao, it's like, a day to worry and yet to celebrate for... I can feel that on that day i will be so so so relaxed, so carefree, that maybe i can no longer remember him... But i believe that given a few more hours, he'll be back on my mind again... Haix. Must do more maths questions to
bury myself in sub-conscious state.

" I'm sorrie for the way i let go; for everything i wanted until you came along... I was never broken, not defeated; I know next to you was not where i belong... And it's a little late for explanation... There isn't anything that you can do... And my eyes hurt, hands shivered, so you'll listen when i say...

I DON'T WANT TO, STAY ANOTHER MINUTE.... I DON'T WANT YOU, TO SAY A SINGLE WORD... There is no other way, i get the final say......... BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO, DO THIS ANY LONGER.. I DON'T WANT you, to say a single word, i've aready spoken, our love is broken......
No more hurts, no more pain, no more crying... No more words no more hurts no more trying..." (edited)

Aready deleted someone from facebook le.. The 2nd person i ever deleted. LOL. And that was a person who managed to pull my faith to the limit, yet he himself fell... Nvm, don't cares. Since he can't be bothered either. =( Now only nid to finish my O levels, den everything will have some time to work out... God will leads the way. :) PTL~

2:21 AM 23 AUG 2009

Haix.. Still raining... If continue like that means i only slept for 3 hours like tat before going to svc later... Hmm... Professional. Later will be by faith that i won't fall asleep~ :DD

Hmm. Yesterday whole day slack sia. Late morning at around 11.30am like that woke up, went to eat breakfast before meeting Esther, den go cdac help her print some stuffs... Den stayed there for a short while, den go back home play computer, train kung fu pets, level up 2 times den go changed clothes den travel to msl cc to play badminton. Den around 6.39pm reached home, play kung fu pets again, level up til 140 den go eat dinner at around 8pm.. ? Den come back play, quarrel with Vvian a while, kana spammed a while, with a total notices of 89+ unseen, record of my facebook account. LOL. That was what i actually done yesterday. Nothing productive. After playing badminton still drink coke and buy western eat, so confirm wont help me in slimming down at all... And cant do any house chores that will make my left hand's index finger getting contact with water coz it's so damn it painful... T___________T Oh wells, so nv do anything much lor.
Basically. LOLs.

*sigh* Cant sleep sia... Computer oso cant work properly. =.= Stupid.. So nid to listen to songs, stare into blank, no mood to do hmwk oso, i'm not a very hard-working gal, and nothing else better to do other than cooking a bowl of maggi mee to chew on. LOLs. I want to play Kung fu pets!!!!! Cannot lose to Jia Jun and Joel =( Bullies manns. Keep on chionging levels one. D: Big bully small. Older than me still like that. Eeyer. LOLs.

Okay lahs, end here. Otherwise it's gonna continue till the end of the world.

LOLOL.

Signing off, (it's still raining)
LOL
JeNNifer :)

Just now almost rained. But i prayed that it don't coz i just cleared my clothes that are to be washed and is hanging outside now. And it really didn't rain!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^ PTL~

My heart is no longer mine.... I haf no idea how to take care of it..... Owaes break and break and break... Dunno how many countless times le.. Plasters oso can't repair it lah. Neither medicine. Neither heartache-professionists. Only God... Can heal it..... Can haf the ability to treat it....... Cure it.......... I want my brokeness to stop asap........ :( *cough*

Oh wells. It's pretty late now... But just can't sleep, even though quiet time is over for me. Keep on thinking about so many things... Uncle oso wanna say i stress for nothing. LOL. Yeeah, indeed. I stress for NOTHING. =.= Win lur. I just reached home not long ago after finishing my dinner at the kopitiam near my house after the cell-grp meeting. Haix. My cell-group is still very cold for me lei... When i left, i think barely a few cg member notice... ? That tym got once even zai. I went to cg meeting dunno got anyone notice i'm there anot. HAIXhaix. *cough* Nevermind lah. Mayb now i too stress cant socialise very well... :o At least i wann to seek God still... Dun wan to lose out to Satan... Now even if i am alone, at least i still haf God by my side... With me to go through this tough time in life with me...

Hiyahs. Vivian and me. Our friendship dunno wad happen liao... She got Chen Yi is more than enuff for her... ? Den i just dont want to be someone extra. *cough* Dun mind being good or bff with Adeline. Just dont like to be used by Vvian. LOLol. Su shan oso another one. Wa lao ehs. Life is like this for me now... Wad i can look forward to... ? God lor. Even my own cg is like tat. Wad can i do manns... Perhaps another test from God to me... ? :) Haha won't fail it de. God is really strict huh. So many tough tests for me... Very very tired le... I am... But the Holy Spirit is there with me... :) PTL. Although God leave me alone, He still loves me. Holy Spirit is with me... ^^

Wa kao. My prelim result. D; Can take the prelim result paper go wash the toilet bowl arh. =_=''' F9. E8. Cs. Majority % of my result. Wah. Holy crap result. Actually i'm really upset for it... :( But nobody will really think that i am. Why: coz many of my frenz are selfish, or like vvian, oso dun wan to study one. So when can pass they're like so happy. No motivation for me at all. Class position of 6. Oh manns. Wad to do? Only can blame my ownself for being so distracted during that period lor... Everything slack slack. Haix. Crazy JeNN. Insane. LOLOL! =.= I'm saying smth -ve abt my ownself... ? O.o Jia lard lah i no hope liao. Really need God.....

Thirsting and hungry after God... Alone... No one else... No more Bs and Ks liao. LOL. BK. Stupid lahhs. Distractions only. And they are distractions i made for myself. :D Crazy means crazy. Well, guess it's natural, si xin is si xin liao. No more is no more. :) I ONLY IS DESPERATE FOR GOD.......

Anyway today cg meeting worship song was the one that i loved. The God i know. :) <33

"The God i know, righteous and Holy... The God i know, faithful and true... The God i know, the
light of the city... The God i know, strengthens the weak... "... "Let Christ reveal... "

The one that i'm able to connect to God so strongly that time. Cry so much that time. All wasted... Nvm. Still i put my trust. In God. I will seek after God's heart. Not my will, but His be done. His desire is mine. :) "Your heart beats within me... "

This is my cry, my one desire... More of you... More of you... This is my cry... My one desire.... More....... More... This is my cry.. My ONE desire......... MORe of you...... MORE of you.......... (Chachinos)....... Righteous and holy...... Hearts are healed..... Christ revealed....... Strong and mighty....... ` <33

Haix. Missed the 20th Anniversary of City Harvest church. T_T Very sad sio... D; 20 years only once... Once and only once for this time... T.T 20th anniversary of City Harvest will nv repeat again... T.T The next 10 yrs will only be 30th anniversary le... By then it's like i'm aready 26 yrs old liao... Old aready sia... T_T sob sob...

STUPID HANDPHONE I HATE U FOR EVER MANNS~~~!!!!!!!!!!! D;

The idiot alarm dunno wad happen... Nv wake me up... =.=''' For wad i use it manns throw away arh! D; T_T

Wa lao eh... =.=''' Siao lor. =.=

Haiz... Nvm cannot complain.. The more i complain the more my soul will be poisoned... T_T

Hmm... The next saturday gonna see Ping He and YX again le... LOL YX got gf liao~~ :DD Gotta catch up wif him to see how the couple progressed. 2 months. Hmm. Ping He oso got le bah. Serene :DD LOLOL~ Come my blog see the gfs name i die~ =xx Hahas. lols. Anyway it's national day celebration... Hmm.. Hope it'll be fun though. :) Hahas.

Anyway YX's mother claims that he is taller than me by 1 head aready.. ? Wah seh really mah? =.= Whr can one grow tall so fast one... Wad a joke... Nvm shall see on saturday~ :DD Even if is taller than me is possible, but by one head is lyk, too over liao la... =.= LOLs... Hmm.. He keep on playing bball... No wonder la... Lols. Can't imagine he'll b taller than Dexter though. Kinda scary uh. :D

Okay. Shall end here~ :)