Haix... In facebook got ppl oso bu shuang me... Wa liao eh.. That Lim Jia go make Kingsley kiss Gladys la... WTF. =XX Haix.. Told him I just playing for fun only ma... So serious for wad manns... Wad the heck...
Why the guys in my own cell group N391 like tat one.... Haixxx....
I don't want to play wif them liao la... Stupid sia.... Everytym want win don't want lose.... Sometimes really feels so bad... Haix....
Today i can't update much again... My stupid laptop now kana virus aready... Nid to get the protection for it for $80++ manns... If let my uncle noe i sure die one... Sob... See.. Everything is just tat bad for me... D; WAd happen to tis world..........................................????
Originally it's just sooo beautiful.... But out of a sudden it just bcame lyk tt... D; Upset laaaaaaaaaaa~~~!!!!
Izzit all coz of my problems in church...?
Sometimes my frenz says tat i owaes got troubles in church one manns.... But things are just lyk tt ma..... I oso dun want to back slide again.... Perhaps i should talk to my cg ldr.... haix....
WA, today kelly top again la... For one of the English paper... Congratz manns... XDDD
Ok la.... Shall stop here liao............ No mood to continue le.... Feel lyk crying manns. wtf.
May 26, 2009 @ I'm So Tired...
May 25, 2009 @ sorry~~
Oh dear.. Actually today haf to update wad kelly and i haf decided to update together de.. Opps.. Today forgotten le... T.T Tml ba.. Coz today i haf some VIP coming over to my hse for a hse visit.. Ya lor.. So no tym to update liao.. i've to go slp soon.. Coz tml still got the intensive... I nv study at all manns.. For all these intensives... Believe it anot lor.. Haix.. totally no mood to study...
T.T Sob sob..
So i just wanna apologise first...
T.T Sob sob..
So i just wanna apologise first...
@ LOL post... :D
8:13 PM 5/21/2009
Haix... Damn bored now..... So sian.... Wonder wad's going on in my life..... Su shan good lor.. So slack... Haix. Don't haf to worry abt anything....... Haiyaya... Anyway now is intensive periods for o lv mother tongue... But i can't help it but keep on playing computer manns.. Oh dear.... {addicted} lol. haix. sian. very sian. veri saddening manns....... everyday of my life is so saddening....... y lyk tat sio...... haix.
11:49 PM 5/22/2009
HAix.. just reached home from cell-group meeting.. GArvin told me to follow God totally, put more trust... Otherwise things won't work out.. it's so true lar... wa sei.. haix. but concentrate on God more liao...... XD And i'm willing to lar. Coz everything has been proven wad. Anything w/o God don work out de lor..
Anyway recently gotten pretty close to Jason. We really only frenz la. Normal frenz only. But scared of misunderstanding only. lol. But everyone should understand de ba..
Anyway i learnt tat i should concentrate on studies more liao.. Tat tym my position in class dropped liao.. 3rd in class.. it's too much of a pain for me to take. LolOL.. Now want to work hard le.. oso so hard liao....... ZzzZzzzZ.... so many things kept coming up. and the worse thing is tat i can't handle finish another thing is coming up liao..... must apply tis apply tat, den still must handle the o lv chinese paper........ wa liao........... everything come days b4 these important exams lor....... zzzzzzzz. haix.. i still can't gif up himm lei........ y so hard one....... tat tym i want let go kenny lyk 2 hrs den forget abt him liao lei. XDD pro la. but now can't liao. wa sian. GIVE ADVICE LEI.
Today's (22.5.09, fri) words from God:
St. Mark 1:15
“And saying, RThe time is fulfilled, and Rthe kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel.”
Out of so many verses I especially paid attention to this verse… This obviously shows that I must be more faithful to God.. Coz I noe sometimes I very distracted.. When things don turn out right, I’ll feel tat God can’t do anything to my situation.. Den is lyk, feeling down, coz God is no longer at my favour, if He love me, den y must torture me wif so many obstacles.. But after tat I learnt tat, oh, actually God is putting us through a lot of obstacles (as a test)… Tis is so tat we can serve God at greater heights….. So must learn to pass the test… Strengthen ourselves… XDD I’ll really try my best le… Coz tis tym round, things are getting harder and harder for me… Ya.. So must learn to let go of things…
And the verse oso says tat I’ve not follow God recently…( Just realized…) Garvin’s right: Everytym I’ve gotten the wrong voice… ZzzZzz. Tat’s probably the voice from Satan(devil) or myself lor… =.= to make me distracted from my studies… Zzz.. Stupid lar.. very hard to restrain against it manns… *Haix* Must really try my best.. Frenz (Christians) do pray for me~~ Pray tat God can guide me closer… I’ll do my part to pray and put all my faith in God liao. After the 2Ks incident I scared liao le… LOOL... =.=lll *Haix* alrite.. tis should b all for today.. :D
Conclusion: I want to get over with the feeling of struggle I’m having now.. And must focus more and all on God..
10:39 AM 5/23/2009
Wa… Just wake up now only… 2nd uncle come early in the morning to look for me… Zzz… Tml can’t go for service again… Nid to go for my grandma’s dunno wad event at their church… Oh mann.. Isn’t tis God helping me to forget abt him…? Ptl.. XDD
Haix… today I’m sooooOOOOOOOOooooo bored… nothing else better to do than sleeping… eating.. Haix… Everyone now chionging o level.. no one is here to accompany me anyway… Haiyaya… Sleep lor. Let myself rot. At home rot.
My parents today both at home.. so my original dating day will b changed to family day..? Oh mann.. Saddening. I’m going to b crazy lo……………………..
But I believe God is goin to bless me lyk nv b4 after tis difficult period. I believe, I believe, I believe… xD
Amen.
Haix... Damn bored now..... So sian.... Wonder wad's going on in my life..... Su shan good lor.. So slack... Haix. Don't haf to worry abt anything....... Haiyaya... Anyway now is intensive periods for o lv mother tongue... But i can't help it but keep on playing computer manns.. Oh dear.... {addicted} lol. haix. sian. very sian. veri saddening manns....... everyday of my life is so saddening....... y lyk tat sio...... haix.
11:49 PM 5/22/2009
HAix.. just reached home from cell-group meeting.. GArvin told me to follow God totally, put more trust... Otherwise things won't work out.. it's so true lar... wa sei.. haix. but concentrate on God more liao...... XD And i'm willing to lar. Coz everything has been proven wad. Anything w/o God don work out de lor..
Anyway recently gotten pretty close to Jason. We really only frenz la. Normal frenz only. But scared of misunderstanding only. lol. But everyone should understand de ba..
Anyway i learnt tat i should concentrate on studies more liao.. Tat tym my position in class dropped liao.. 3rd in class.. it's too much of a pain for me to take. LolOL.. Now want to work hard le.. oso so hard liao....... ZzzZzzzZ.... so many things kept coming up. and the worse thing is tat i can't handle finish another thing is coming up liao..... must apply tis apply tat, den still must handle the o lv chinese paper........ wa liao........... everything come days b4 these important exams lor....... zzzzzzzz. haix.. i still can't gif up himm lei........ y so hard one....... tat tym i want let go kenny lyk 2 hrs den forget abt him liao lei. XDD pro la. but now can't liao. wa sian. GIVE ADVICE LEI.
Today's (22.5.09, fri) words from God:
St. Mark 1:15
“And saying, RThe time is fulfilled, and Rthe kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel.”
Out of so many verses I especially paid attention to this verse… This obviously shows that I must be more faithful to God.. Coz I noe sometimes I very distracted.. When things don turn out right, I’ll feel tat God can’t do anything to my situation.. Den is lyk, feeling down, coz God is no longer at my favour, if He love me, den y must torture me wif so many obstacles.. But after tat I learnt tat, oh, actually God is putting us through a lot of obstacles (as a test)… Tis is so tat we can serve God at greater heights….. So must learn to pass the test… Strengthen ourselves… XDD I’ll really try my best le… Coz tis tym round, things are getting harder and harder for me… Ya.. So must learn to let go of things…
And the verse oso says tat I’ve not follow God recently…( Just realized…) Garvin’s right: Everytym I’ve gotten the wrong voice… ZzzZzz. Tat’s probably the voice from Satan(devil) or myself lor… =.= to make me distracted from my studies… Zzz.. Stupid lar.. very hard to restrain against it manns… *Haix* Must really try my best.. Frenz (Christians) do pray for me~~ Pray tat God can guide me closer… I’ll do my part to pray and put all my faith in God liao. After the 2Ks incident I scared liao le… LOOL... =.=lll *Haix* alrite.. tis should b all for today.. :D
Conclusion: I want to get over with the feeling of struggle I’m having now.. And must focus more and all on God..
10:39 AM 5/23/2009
Wa… Just wake up now only… 2nd uncle come early in the morning to look for me… Zzz… Tml can’t go for service again… Nid to go for my grandma’s dunno wad event at their church… Oh mann.. Isn’t tis God helping me to forget abt him…? Ptl.. XDD
Haix… today I’m sooooOOOOOOOOooooo bored… nothing else better to do than sleeping… eating.. Haix… Everyone now chionging o level.. no one is here to accompany me anyway… Haiyaya… Sleep lor. Let myself rot. At home rot.
My parents today both at home.. so my original dating day will b changed to family day..? Oh mann.. Saddening. I’m going to b crazy lo……………………..
But I believe God is goin to bless me lyk nv b4 after tis difficult period. I believe, I believe, I believe… xD
Amen.
May 21, 2009 @
Haix. Some one keep on blaming tat it's my fault. =.=''' WAdever. My fault my fault lor. ZzzZZzzz. loser.
May 20, 2009 @ I'm super Emotional-wierd !!!
Hahas.. Today i have a great fun in school.. XDD Kelly Chan loh.. LoOLooOL.. During the social studies extra lesson after school, it's so funny lor.. She totally in the "screen saver" mode lar.. Hahs.. It's so damn seriously true la.. U noe how a screen saver looks wad rite.. She'll stone there, staring into blank, and swing (slightly la) front back side side lar.. ZzzZZzz.. XDD But damn funny.. During class, ms lee taught us an SBQ question based on foreign talent.. Wa. She pro lor. Ppl write having foreign talent she can write loving foreign talent. (Come'on, it's different meaning lur...) Haix. local disgrace... (Na, just joking only lar.. XDD) Ernest says tat there are some types of students in class.. 1. Hard working in class, but miss out main points (not smart) 2. Students in screen saver mood and 3. Students studying hard and smart.. LOL. Kelly belongs to the 2nd option lur.. HAhs. (obviously)
Anyway todai i've learnt one new word. Hostile. At first when miss lee say hostile den i was lyk, huh? Coz i tot hostile = hostage. Den kelly say she last tym say her first impression for Ellis was that she's a hostile gal.. So, does it mean tat Ellis gif Kelly a feeling tat she is actually a hostage b4 or somehow.. ? *shocking!* Ya lorh. Den after tat i found out tat, oh, Kelly tinks Ellis is unfriendly (true meaning of hostile). WA, see, my english really so damn bad ar.. ZZzzZZzz.. sian de lor.. P/S: Hostile is not hostage. Don't say i teach wrong things manns. I'm sitting beside someone who scores the highest for english in the lv manns XDD cool~
In class hor, even pro. Adeline.. Teow Chai Ling in Sec 4M1 going to be 16 yrs old from marsiling secondary school to be specific.. XDD She hor, talk to me lyk want to go on war lyk tt lurh.. DEn she oso say a lot of funny things.. Which i've forgotten le. Oh ya, and she made kelly scold her lur.. Kelly damn scary when she scold ppl ar. (guys pls watch out!)
Oh, got one very funny thingy is oso very lame lar... During lesson oso got one thing talking abt the chief of the XTXC.. (CAnnot say the organisation to prevent unnecessary troubles) WA, miss lee say the chief of tat company everyday talks to newspaper lor.. Zai rite. I oso must practice. Kelly got a WONDERFUL suggestion tat i should talk english to chinese newspaper and talk chinese to english newspaper. I tink i should try if i want to be a chief of my company next tym. And u guys can visit me at Metta Home or the IMH at buangkok green in future. :) Na. Nono. Just kidding.. XDD
Anyway tis post is all abt kelly la. Coz i tink we have chemistry. :D (I don't mean tat subject called Chemistry, though) Today decided to post more. Coz got the stupid quiz coming up. Test. Must train typing skills too ar.. LOLOL.. That test really tests us lyk how ppl test dogs lar.. Zzz.. Den the table thingy oso so hard. . . . LoOLooL..
Anyway another important thing i wanna update is about Kingsley.. Haix.. I wonder how is he doing now.. Although we've lyk sort of separated, but tis tym round is not lyk how i;ve separated with Kenny la.. I'll keep on think of him manns.. Haix.. Y lyk tt de.. Very distracted in class lur.. Sob.. Actually the fact is tat i don wan to leave him de.. But i oso no point to stay wif him lei.. The person he lyk not me at all.. Den now he can act to be sadd.. Wa sei.. He everytym compare me wif other gals lar.. Haix.. So high expectations.. Go look for other gals lor.. ZzzZzz.. Lame. Nv seen tis kind of guy b4.. =.= Mayb in Australia is typical lar.. Coz i heard one over sea fren in runescape says tat guys in Aust loves to be dote instead of loving the gal lar.. Wa, lyk tt if kingsley can get another gf in s'pore successfully is really going to b damn difficult lar. =.=
He dunno so many things de lor.. =.= To all the gals i noe in s'pore, who would want to love and dote the bf more than he dote or love u.. ???? Who wants manns. Tat's y i haf to leave.. Haix.... Next tym i will learn to make clever decisions liao lor.. =.= Wad the heck. D;
WA. So here comes the chemistry again, Kelly ar.. XDD (Ellis if got come dun jealous alrite XDD)
Anyway todai i've learnt one new word. Hostile. At first when miss lee say hostile den i was lyk, huh? Coz i tot hostile = hostage. Den kelly say she last tym say her first impression for Ellis was that she's a hostile gal.. So, does it mean tat Ellis gif Kelly a feeling tat she is actually a hostage b4 or somehow.. ? *shocking!* Ya lorh. Den after tat i found out tat, oh, Kelly tinks Ellis is unfriendly (true meaning of hostile). WA, see, my english really so damn bad ar.. ZZzzZZzz.. sian de lor.. P/S: Hostile is not hostage. Don't say i teach wrong things manns. I'm sitting beside someone who scores the highest for english in the lv manns XDD cool~
In class hor, even pro. Adeline.. Teow Chai Ling in Sec 4M1 going to be 16 yrs old from marsiling secondary school to be specific.. XDD She hor, talk to me lyk want to go on war lyk tt lurh.. DEn she oso say a lot of funny things.. Which i've forgotten le. Oh ya, and she made kelly scold her lur.. Kelly damn scary when she scold ppl ar. (guys pls watch out!)
Oh, got one very funny thingy is oso very lame lar... During lesson oso got one thing talking abt the chief of the XTXC.. (CAnnot say the organisation to prevent unnecessary troubles) WA, miss lee say the chief of tat company everyday talks to newspaper lor.. Zai rite. I oso must practice. Kelly got a WONDERFUL suggestion tat i should talk english to chinese newspaper and talk chinese to english newspaper. I tink i should try if i want to be a chief of my company next tym. And u guys can visit me at Metta Home or the IMH at buangkok green in future. :) Na. Nono. Just kidding.. XDD
Anyway tis post is all abt kelly la. Coz i tink we have chemistry. :D (I don't mean tat subject called Chemistry, though) Today decided to post more. Coz got the stupid quiz coming up. Test. Must train typing skills too ar.. LOLOL.. That test really tests us lyk how ppl test dogs lar.. Zzz.. Den the table thingy oso so hard. . . . LoOLooL..
Anyway another important thing i wanna update is about Kingsley.. Haix.. I wonder how is he doing now.. Although we've lyk sort of separated, but tis tym round is not lyk how i;ve separated with Kenny la.. I'll keep on think of him manns.. Haix.. Y lyk tt de.. Very distracted in class lur.. Sob.. Actually the fact is tat i don wan to leave him de.. But i oso no point to stay wif him lei.. The person he lyk not me at all.. Den now he can act to be sadd.. Wa sei.. He everytym compare me wif other gals lar.. Haix.. So high expectations.. Go look for other gals lor.. ZzzZzz.. Lame. Nv seen tis kind of guy b4.. =.= Mayb in Australia is typical lar.. Coz i heard one over sea fren in runescape says tat guys in Aust loves to be dote instead of loving the gal lar.. Wa, lyk tt if kingsley can get another gf in s'pore successfully is really going to b damn difficult lar. =.=
He dunno so many things de lor.. =.= To all the gals i noe in s'pore, who would want to love and dote the bf more than he dote or love u.. ???? Who wants manns. Tat's y i haf to leave.. Haix.... Next tym i will learn to make clever decisions liao lor.. =.= Wad the heck. D;
WA. So here comes the chemistry again, Kelly ar.. XDD (Ellis if got come dun jealous alrite XDD)
May 19, 2009 @ HE DUNNO
Wow. Great things to say first. Pastor Kong recently saw JJ LIn and have ice-cream wif him XDD WOooHoo!! cool larh. JJ sia.. I oso want to see his real being lor.. oh mann..
Anyway, recently something bad happened.. My grandma passed away.. And for 2 days i attended her wake.. Being the grand daughter of her, i feel so helpless.. Only can see her struggling.. Somemore she passed away when i was not by the side of her bed in the SGH hospital.. Although i tried not to cry, i've succeeded in the process of the wake but failed in my heart.. I went home and when i was alone, i was totally soOOoo ******** lor.. haix. But suan le ba. Afterall she is going to the LORD. Should b happy for her.. :)
Another thing tat really hit me hard is abt my relationship.. Haix.. High expectations ruins all..
He still dunno.. Forever dunnoo.. Leaving is wanting to be more loved.. Saying or talking is not ways to solve the problems.. Oso kept on saying tat other gals are so charming.. All guys' type.. Wa seh. Hurts me sooOOoo deep lur.. But nvm la. At least he is truthful.. So tat i can leave him.. So tat things won't get worse.. haix.
Pretty upset. In fact, very.. CAn't concentrate on studies le.. But stil haf to try my best to, and i will lar. Actually it's a gd thing la. Right? At least he can go for the gal he'll really love. Oh manns. Eww. (in aust) nah. jk. HE dunno tis blog XDD So i can post wadever i want XDD
So sad sia. everytym things end up bad for me de.. But i still hope tat i and him can still b close frenz la.. coz he's actully very loving de.. Just tat he's not mature enuff. Haix. Dunno wad's love. LoloL. Actually i oso dunno. coz nv experiemce the truth before. One thing i believe is tat most of us don haf the word "forever" in our dictionary. Haix. now i talk lyk i'm 21yrs old. WOW. cool. k la. now very late. now tat i got lappy, mayb can update more often le. XDD
Anyway, recently something bad happened.. My grandma passed away.. And for 2 days i attended her wake.. Being the grand daughter of her, i feel so helpless.. Only can see her struggling.. Somemore she passed away when i was not by the side of her bed in the SGH hospital.. Although i tried not to cry, i've succeeded in the process of the wake but failed in my heart.. I went home and when i was alone, i was totally soOOoo ******** lor.. haix. But suan le ba. Afterall she is going to the LORD. Should b happy for her.. :)
Another thing tat really hit me hard is abt my relationship.. Haix.. High expectations ruins all..
He still dunno.. Forever dunnoo.. Leaving is wanting to be more loved.. Saying or talking is not ways to solve the problems.. Oso kept on saying tat other gals are so charming.. All guys' type.. Wa seh. Hurts me sooOOoo deep lur.. But nvm la. At least he is truthful.. So tat i can leave him.. So tat things won't get worse.. haix.
Pretty upset. In fact, very.. CAn't concentrate on studies le.. But stil haf to try my best to, and i will lar. Actually it's a gd thing la. Right? At least he can go for the gal he'll really love. Oh manns. Eww. (in aust) nah. jk. HE dunno tis blog XDD So i can post wadever i want XDD
So sad sia. everytym things end up bad for me de.. But i still hope tat i and him can still b close frenz la.. coz he's actully very loving de.. Just tat he's not mature enuff. Haix. Dunno wad's love. LoloL. Actually i oso dunno. coz nv experiemce the truth before. One thing i believe is tat most of us don haf the word "forever" in our dictionary. Haix. now i talk lyk i'm 21yrs old. WOW. cool. k la. now very late. now tat i got lappy, mayb can update more often le. XDD
